+ i'll be your happy bunny. +

2010-01-21T12:19:00.003+08:00

Maybe I should micro-blog. Meaning there's another place, where I could pen my thought down. (:

2010-01-06T17:17:00.002+08:00

I miss you. Wish you were here. *carebear hugs*

Honor of Women

2010-01-05T17:03:00.004+08:00

40 Keistimewaan Wanita

Berikut merupakan keistimewaan wanita menurut Islam, menunjukkan betapa Islam begitu menghormati dan menghargai para wanita yang sholehah.

Wanita yang solehah (baik) itu lebih baik daripada 70 orang pria yang soleh.
Barang siapa yang menggembirakan anak perempuannya, derajatnya seumpama orang yang sentiasa menangis kerana takutkan Allah S.W.T. dan orang yang takutkan Allah S.W.T. akan diharamkan api neraka ke atas tubuhnya.
Barang siapa yang membawa hadiah (barang makanan dari pasar ke rumah) lalu diberikan kepada keluarganya, maka pahalanya seperti bersedekah.
Hendaklah mendahulukan anak perempuan daripada anak pria. Maka barang siapa yang menyukakan anak perempuan seolah- olah dia memerdekakan anak Nabi Ismail A.S.
Wanita yang tinggal bersama anak-anaknya akan tinggal bersama aku (Rasulullah S.A.W.) di dalam syurga.
Barang siapa mempunyai tiga anak perempuan atau tiga saudara perempuan atau dua anak perempuan atau dua saudara perempuan, lalu dia bersikap ihsan dalam pergaulan dengan mereka dan mendidik mereka dengan penuh rasa takwa serta bertanggungjawab, maka baginya adalah syurga.
Daripada Aisyah r.a. “Barang siapa yang diuji dengan se Suatu daripada anak-anak perempuannya, lalu dia berbuat baik kepada mereka, maka mereka akan menjadi penghalang baginya daripada api neraka.
Syurga itu di bawah telapak kaki ibu.
Apabila memanggil akan engkau dua orang ibu bapamu, maka jawablah panggilan ibumu dahulu.
Wanita yang taat berkhidmat kepada suaminya akan tertutup pintu-pintu neraka dan terbuka pintu-pintu syurga. Masuklah dari mana-mana pintu yang dia kehendaki dengan tidak dihisab.
Wanita yang taat akan suaminya, semua ikan-ikan di laut, burung di udara, malaikat di langit, matahari dan bulan, semuanya beristighfar baginya selama mana dia taat kepada suaminya dan direkannya (serta menjaga sembahyang dan puasanya).
Aisyah r.a. berkata “Aku bertanya kepada Rasulullah S.A.W., siapakah yang lebih besar haknya terhadap wanita? Jawab baginda, “Suaminya.” “Siapa pula berhak terhadap pria?” tanya Aisyah kembali, Jawab Rasulullah S.A.W. “Ibunya.”
Perempuan apabila sembahyang lima waktu, puasa bulan Ramadan, memelihara kehormatannya serta taat akan suaminya, masuklah dia dari pintu syurga mana sahaja yang dia kehendaki.
Tiap perempuan yang menolong suaminya dalam urusan agama, maka Allah S.W.T. memasukkan dia ke dalam syurga lebih dahulu daripada suaminya (10,000 tahun).
Apabila seseorang perempuan mengandung janin dalam rahimnya, maka beristighfarlah para malaikat untuknya. Allah S.W.T. menatatkan baginya setiap hari dengan 1,000 kebaikan dan menghapuskan darinya 1,000 kejahatan.
Apabila seseorang perempuan mulai sakit hendak bersalin, maka Allah S.W.T. mencatatkan baginya pahala orang yang berjihad pada jalan Allah S.W.T.
Apabila seseorang perempuan melahirkan anak, keluarlah dia daripada dosa-dosa seperti keadaan ibunya melahirkannya.
Apabila telah lahir (anak) lalu disusui, maka bagi ibu itu setiap satu tegukan daripada susunya diberi satu kebajikan.
Apabila semalaman (ibu) tidak tidur dan memelihara anaknya yang sakit, maka Allah S.W.T. memberinya pahala seperti memerdekakan 70 orang hamba dengan ikhlas untuk membela agama Allah S.W.T.
Seorang wanita solehah adalah lebih baik daripada 70 orang wali.
Seorang wanita yang jahat adalah lebih buruk dari pada 1,000 pria yang jahat.
Rakaat solat dari wanita yang hamil adalah lebih baik daripada 80 rakaat solat wanita yang tidak hamil.
Wanita yang memberi minum air susu ibu (asi) kepada anaknya daripada badannya (susu badannya sendiri) akan dapat satu pahala dari pada tiap-tiap titik susu yang diberikannya.
Wanita yang melayani dengan baik suami yang pulang ke rumah di dalam keadaan letih akan mendapat pahala jihad.
Wanita yang melihat suaminya dengan kasih sayang dan suami yang melihat isterinya dengan kasih sayang akan dipandang Allah dengan penuh rahmat.
Wanita yang menyebabkan suaminya keluar dan berjuang ke jalan Allah dan kemudian menjaga adab rumah tangganya akan masuk syurga 500 tahun lebih awal daripada suaminya, akan menjadi ketua 70,000 malaikat dan bidadari dan wanita itu akan dimandikan di dalam syurga, dan menunggu suaminya dengan menunggang kuda yang dibuat daripada yakut.
Wanita yang tidak cukup tidur pada malam hari kerana menjaga anak yang sakit akan diampunkan oleh Allah akan seluruh dosanya dan bila dia hiburkan hati anaknya Allah memberi 12 tahun pahala ibadat.
Wanita yang memerah susu binatang dengan “bismillah” akan didoakan oleh binatang itu dengan doa keberkatan.
Wanita yang menguli tepung gandum dengan “bismillah”, Allah akan berkatkan rezekinya.
Wanita yang menyapu lantai dengan berzikir akan mendapat pahala seperti meyapu lantai di baitullah.
Wanita yang hamil akan dapat pahala berpuasa pada siang hari.
Wanita yang hamil akan dapat pahala beribadat pada malam hari.
Wanita yang bersalin akan mendapat pahala 70 tahun solat dan puasa dan setiap kesakitan pada satu uratnya Allah mengurniakan satu pahala haji.
Sekiranya wanita mati dalam masa 40 hari selepas bersalin, dia akan dikira sebagai mati syahid.
Jika wanita melayani suami tanpa khianat akan mendapat pahala 12 tahun solat.
Jika wanita menyusui anaknya sampai cukup tempo(2½ thn),maka malaikat-malaikat dilangit akan khabarkan berita bahwa syurga wajib baginya. Jika wanita memberi susu badannya kepada anaknya yang menangis, Allah akan memberi pahala satu tahun solat dan puasa.
Jika wanita memicit/mijat suami tanpa disuruh akan mendapat pahala 7 tola emas dan jika wanita memicit suami bila disuruh akan mendapat pahala 7 tola perak.
Wanita yang meninggal dunia dengan keredhaan suaminya akan memasuki syurga.
Jika suami mengajarkan isterinya satu masalah akan mendapat pahala 80 tahun ibadat.
Semua orang akan dipanggil untuk melihat wajah Allah di akhirat, tetapi Allah akan datang sendiri kepada wanita yang memberati auratnya yaitu memakai purdah di dunia ini dengan istiqamah.

I found this on an acquaintance's page and decided to share this with all. (:

2009-12-21T09:37:00.002+08:00

One of the best moments of my life was having friends and loved ones, remember your special day. I could not ask for more. (:

2009-12-17T16:56:00.004+08:00

May much love, peace, joy and laughter be spread to all that I care for. Thanks for all the birthday wishes. I appreciate each and every one of them. One can only be so thankful that people close to heart, remembers your special day. I'm deeply touched by your lovely gestures.

"And in the end, it's not the years in your life that counts. It's the life in your years."

To all, God bless and thank you again. (:

Much love,

Nurul.

2009-12-17T16:54:00.003+08:00

So sweet of them. ^_^ Many heartfelt thanks.

2009-12-17T12:28:00.002+08:00

Hahahahah! Funny (in a way). I like. (:

2009-12-14T12:01:00.004+08:00

I don't think it's wrong to say that while I'm busy living my life, some people are at a standstill, checking up on others.

2009-12-11T15:06:00.005+08:00

Come and give her your support girlfriends. :D

Wanna look good? (:

2009-12-11T09:32:00.011+08:00

Hi gfs! I'm acting on behalf of @suefbellish (follow her on Twitter). She's starting a small-scaled make-up business and she would like to have your support. (Many thanks in advance!)

As of now (yay!), Sue is of a service to girls who wanna look good and enchance their, already pretty features. Since she's starting small (baby steps), her services are of afforable prices.

So what are you girls waiting for? Here we have the best of both world. You will end up looking even fabolous and Sue, using her potential to enchance her make-up skills, will create the personalised look you want, for you. That leaves you more time to decide on other stuffs. Cos.. Voila! Your make-up's done.

You can have a better view of the make up she's done on me & a few others of our friends on her/my FB. Many are of "kelam-kabut, anyhow, simple" make-up. But I really think it looks real gorgeous! Heh! :D So now just imagine the look you're going to have once she does her midas touch on you darlings.

For further enquiries, please do not hesitate to contact Suhaila at suefbellish@hotmail.com. Alternatively, you could drop her a PM on twitter (@suefbellish) or FB (suefbellish@hotmail.com).

Cheers to Sue & her future lovely clients! (: May this be the start of even greater things.

P/s: Click on the picture for a bigger, clearer view. (:

2009-12-10T12:59:00.002+08:00

In our family portrait
We look pretty happy
We look pretty normal
Lets go back to that
In our family portrait
We look pretty happy
Lets play pretend, act like it
Goes naturally

2009-12-07T17:30:00.002+08:00

Happiness is the undying quest of life, the unquenchable thirst and the insatiable hunger of all human kind. Happiness is what we all seek for, what we long for. But can such bliss be nothing but an elusive state of mind, which is here one moment and gone the next, or is such a positive outlook attainable for a lifetime? Perhaps it is, it just is.

2009-12-07T17:28:00.003+08:00

If somebody says that they love you, find out what do they love in you. Do they love your personality, your looks, your power, your money or your emotional makeup? Once you know that they love something that may not change much after years go ahead and reciprocate. For example - your money or power or looks may change, but your personality and your emotional makeup will not change much.

Do they love you for what you are or do they love you for what you have?

2009-12-01T11:14:00.004+08:00

They say, "Ignorance is bliss."

I say, " I've found my bliss in you."

2009-12-01T10:04:00.004+08:00

Alamak!! Cannot upload pics today! Geramnye. Grrrrr!~

Guess I have to painstakingly do it slowly, upload it one at a time, later at home. -.-'

But for now, enjoy the pictures that I've "stole" from Ihsan's Fb. Lol.

2009-12-01T09:01:00.011+08:00

OOOO-EMMM-GEEEE!~

You talk like a champion. Think I should give you a trophy.

Prangai takmu kental la. Asik-asik tag the same old thing. I think yours also copy & paste. *rolls eyes*

I can say a million things but what for. I don't need to prove anything to those who don't know me. All I know is I never took credit for what's not mine. People just assume things. Errr.. That just makes them look stupid. Ehh.. My blog, my pasal can? Your thoughts on me is yours, my thoughts on things is solely mine. You can't take that away from me. Kalau tak suke, just walk away. Talk & more talk makes everything worse. Sampai bile pon tak habis. You know what.. I'm so walking away. Yang malu pon, orang yang cakap tu semua. -.-

This is (what like Sulinah said before) like playing squash. If I don't continue hitting the ball, hey it's game over. It doesn't mean I've lose. Only means I'm tired. Tired of playing stupid little childish mind games. And all I have said here is for all to see. So no hard feelings ya. (:

Anyway, I had so much during the weekends with friends and of course, my sayang! I so wanna upload the hundreds of pictures (that FB doesn't wanna cooperate with me). Just bear with me for a while now. Shall upload them prolly after lunch where I'm a little free. Good day everyone. Peace.

P/s: It's also World Aids Day.

Spread the love won't you? (:

2009-11-29T18:57:00.007+08:00

If you don't like it, just walk away. Stop terrorising my blog. I see no point in you, to keep coming back here. So I get the point. You think I'm no good. So shooo. As I have already said, don't like it, go away. I don't need you to tell me what's right or what's not. Enough. *rolls eyes*

Anyway, if you really have a problem with me, please come and talk. Hate-tags and suchs.. Gosh. This is plain childish. Konon-konon I'm so famous/popular now la kan. Nak autograph tak? -.-

2009-11-26T09:32:00.005+08:00

Anger is particularly destructive in relationships. When we live in close contact with someone, our personalities, priorities, interests, and ways of doing things frequently clash. Since we spend so much time together, and since we know the other person’s shortcomings so well, it is very easy for us to become critical and short-tempered with our partner and to blame him or her for making our life uncomfortable. Unless we make a continuous effort to deal with this anger as it arises, our relationship will suffer. A couple may genuinely love one another, but if they frequently get angry with each other the times when they are happy together will become fewer and further between. Eventually there will come a point when before they have recovered from one row the next has already begun. Like a flower choked by weeds, love cannot survive in such circumstances.

-We should remember that every opportunity to develop anger is also an opportunity to develop patience.

In a close relationship, opportunities to get angry arise many times a day, so to prevent the build-up of bad feelings we need to deal with anger as soon as it begins to arise in our mind. We clear away the dishes after every meal rather than waiting until the end of the month, because we do not want to live in a dirty house nor be faced with a huge, unpleasant job. In the same way, we need to make the effort to clear away the mess in our mind as soon as it appears, for if we allow it to accumulate it will become more and more difficult to deal with, and will endanger our relationship. We should remember that every opportunity to develop anger is also an opportunity to develop patience. A relationship in which there is a lot of friction and conflict of interests is also an unrivalled opportunity to erode away our self-cherishing and self-grasping, which are the real sources of all our problems. By practising the instructions on patience explained here, we can transform our relationships into opportunities for spiritual growth.

Anger Creates Enemies

It is through our anger and hatred that we transform people into enemies. We generally assume that anger arises when we encounter a disagreeable person, but actually it is the anger already within us that transforms the person we meet into our imagined foe. Someone controlled by their anger lives within a paranoid view of the world, surrounded by enemies of his or her own creation. The false belief that everyone hates him can become so overwhelming that he might even go insane, the victim of his own delusion.

So here I am, trying to curb my anger. I really hope it doesn't self-destruct me or anyone else that I care for. But managing it needs patience, time and care. Without that, it might be hard. Yet I'm still willing to try. Cheers.

2009-11-25T14:58:00.007+08:00

I need to post more. When things aren’t going well or I don’t have anything “motivational” to say, I tend not to write. In the end, I write negative, cranky, draggy posts. And who wants to read about someone failing? And, quite honestly, how many times can a person write “I’m still in the rut and not feeling so great” anyway? It gets old. But then again, if I’m only blogging when something exciting or happy occurs, I’m not going to blog very much (which is exactly what’s happening).

The truth? I spend most days feeling physically awful (which, of course, makes me feel emotionally awful). I’m not talking about the occasional “off” day or a slight lack of energy. I’m talking about several days each week when I can barely get through each day. I always wake up feeling exhausted or I wake up feeling tired and less than two hours later, complete exhaustion hits me. I’m never tired enough to sleep peacefully and I’m never quite awake or alert enough to function during the day. And it’s not just mental alertness. It’s whole-body fatigue that’s so overwhelming that it essentially renders me useless to myself or anyone else. You know how you feel right before you get sick? Run-down, disoriented, tired eyes, etc? That’s how I feel pretty much all the time. Along with this fatigue comes nausea, confusion, headaches, and yes, depression. I look at other people and marvel that they seem to have enough energy to get through each day.

The odd thing? I have one or maybe two days a week when I DO feel okay (and on those days, I have lots of energy and it’s as if I’m viewing the world in High Def). The rest of the week? No.

Today is a good example. I woke up feeling a bit sleepy even after 8 hours of “rest.” My legs and feet felt a bit numb as if I’d just gotten off of a treadmill. Strange. I had a breakfast of digestive biscuits and a cup of Milo and planned on jogging later in the day. Within an hour, I felt lightheaded. I spent some time checking email (even though it was really hard to focus) and seemed to feel worse as the time passed. “Here we go again,” I thought. It was really pissing me off. The best way I can describe it? Imagine being drugged without your consent. As I write this, my whole body is aching. Not actual pain but just … overwhelming fatigue. I am literally TIRED of this.

How am I go jogging and improve my health when I can barely function? I have actual lists of things I want (and need) to accomplish. But I can’t. I can’t get anything done. Preparing things has become overwhelming. My house is a disaster. I’m behind schedule. I’ve even stopped scheduling time with friends because more often than not I end up canceling since I’m always too tired or “out of it” to go anywhere or do anything.

Going to the doctor about all of this isn’t an option. Doctor is useless anyway (she’s the kind of person who’s more interested in dispensing the latest meds instead of actually providing heath care). One example: my chronic backache was “treated” with “here’s a prescription – now go away.” No matter that chronic backache can be a sign of “more serious conditions” and I am unable to feel well somehow without the benefit of some chemical substance. Those of you out there who simply do things and feel normal each day? I envy you.

I don’t know what to do to make myself be okay. I don’t drink caffeine after 2pm. For the most part, I’m not eating sweets or chocolate. I don’t eat much containing MSG. I take multivitamins. I’m eating smaller meals throughout the day (and even more vegetables). I’ve increased protein and decreased carbs. I’m wondering if I’m allergic to something. Dairy? Wheat gluten? Maybe a health and beauty product? My laundry detergent? Is this some pre-menstrual thing even though I’ve had no other “symptoms?” It has to be something.

I’ve been under a serious amount of stress both emotionally and financially and haven’t talked to anyone about it. For the first time in my life, I’m just keeping it all inside. I’m wondering if my body’s “condition” is a reflection of that. Worse yet, on the days I DO feel good, I go overboard trying to get things done because I don’t know how long it will be until I’ll have an “okay” day again. It just adds to the stress.

Either way, I now dread going to bed each evening and dread waking up each morning (and then dread getting through each day). That pretty much covers my entire existence. Not good.

Rose, Rose.. I love you.

2009-11-25T09:33:00.003+08:00

A single bloom of red rose
love at first sight or "I still love you"

A single rose in any colour
indicates simplicity and gratitude

2 roses
mutual feelings

3 roses
"I love you"

7 roses
"I'm infatuated with you"

9 roses
"We'll be together forever"

10 roses
"You are perfect"

11 roses
"You are My Treasured One"

12 roses
"Be mine!"

13 roses
"Friends forever"

15 roses
"I'm truly sorry"

20 roses
"I'm truly sincere towards you"

21 roses
"I'm dedicated to you"

24 roses
"Forever yours"

25 roses
Congratulations

36 roses
"Remembering our romantic times"

40 roses
"My genuine love for you"

50 roses
Unconditional love

99 roses
"I will love you all the days of my life"

101 roses
"I'm completely devoted to you"

108 roses
"Will you marry me?"

999 roses
"I love you till the end of time"

Roses.. Anyone? :D

2009-11-18T17:28:00.006+08:00

I love my girlfriends. (:

Thank God, they exist and they make my life a colourful one. Thanks.

P/s: Happy Birthday to @duckessprincess & @Faeza_Aide. (:
May Allah bless you in everything that you do.

2009-11-17T17:26:00.005+08:00

I feel like moving from here. To a fresh new space. Should I? -.-

Anyway Sulinah, I read what you have said in your tumblr. Hehehe! Ape lagiiiii..?!
*grins widely*

2009-11-11T16:48:00.004+08:00

Sometimes you just feel the lost of someone thou you're not really close to them. For their presence have somehow, left a mark in your life and it will forever be etched in your heart.

You don't know where to start again because you don't know who to blame for the loss. You think you could have make it better but you don't know for sure. Yet you wished you had tried but am scared of being broken again. So what do you do?

I'm feeling all emo and this thing has nothing to do with me so why the heck am I feeling this way? It's just maybe I still have a heart that cares and I wish things could have been different for you two.

(I felt like we could have been sisters in the near future but I guess, for now, this is farewell.)

2009-11-10T14:55:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder if anything's absolute anymore. Is there still right and wrong? Good and bad? Truth or lies? Or is everything negotiable, left to interpretation, grey. Sometimes we're forced to bend the truth, transform it, cause we're faced with things that are not of our own making. And sometimes things simply catch up to us.

2009-11-09T11:33:00.003+08:00

I feel a little better. The throbbing headache has come and gone but the wind in my tummy is playing tricks on me. I think I'm having gastric now. It's so painful!! I swear. :( Even my menses doesn't hurt this bad! Goodness gracious. Please go away gastric. I don't need to be in pain on a Monday. -.-

2009-11-06T12:54:00.004+08:00

T.H. White said: Perhaps we all give the best of our hearts uncritically to those who hardly think about us in return.

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How did we become so broken? We fell in love, and at some point, the people we love forgot to love us back.

2009-11-04T10:17:00.001+08:00

2009-11-03T11:08:00.003+08:00

Have you ever wondered - people whom you date are usually those that you don’t really envision being married to. It’s like you date this hot dude, but the one you are marrying is the decent one. Well, honestly when my friends and I were discussing about it, I somewhat agree. Hahaha. Yeah, come to think about it, it seems quite true. However, it is still open to discussions. *winks* ('cause I think my boyf.'s quite hot and he's decent too!)

2009-11-02T17:23:00.001+08:00

“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”

2009-10-31T10:22:00.004+08:00

I found this on a friend's page and just wanted to share.

"I wonder if their intention is to sincerely share, or to just show off to the world that they are a good muslim from the religious links that they have posted here. And also, I have learned from experience that praying 5 times a day doesn't make one a pious/true muslim. You may pray 5 times a day, but if your character doesn't compliment it, what does that make you?"

So before we speak of others (in blogs, facebook, tags and such), may we reflect on ourselves first.

Thank you.

2009-10-30T14:34:00.006+08:00

“I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.”

I still get butterflies in my tummy yang boncet ni.

Let's grow old and gendut together baby boyot! (:

2009-10-28T11:39:00.002+08:00

“It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.”

Thank GOD I found you. *blessed*

2009-10-28T09:13:00.007+08:00

Oh a million faces pass my way
Oh they're all the same, nothing seem to change anytime I look around
Oh who knows just what the future holds
All I want to know is if it's with you..

2009-10-27T09:16:00.004+08:00

“You will know that forgiveness has begun when you recall those who hurt you and feel the power to wish them well.”

Let's have a happy start to a Tuesday. Good day to all. Cheers!

2009-10-26T15:01:00.013+08:00

Seeing pictures like these makes me happy.
Who needs the world when I have my closest ones right here with me?

Praise to Allah. (:

2009-10-26T13:22:00.001+08:00

Doa memohon perlindungan dari fitnah Dajjal yang diajarkan Rasulullah SAW. Dibaca semasa tahiyyat akhir sebelum memberi salam.

اللَّهُمَّ إِنِّي أَعُوذُ بِكَ مِنْ عَذَابِ جَهَنَّمَ، وَمِنْ عَذَابِ الْقَبْرِ، وَمِنْ فِتْنَةِ الْمَحْيَا وَالْمَمَاتِ، وَمِنْ شَرِّ فِتْنَةِ الْمَسِيحِ الدَّجَّالِ

Ertinya: "YA Allah, sesungguhnya aku berlindung dengan-Mu daripada azab neraka jahanam, daripada azab kubur, daripada ujian kehidupan dan kematian, dan daripada kejahatan ujian al-masih dajjal." (HR Muslim 1276)

Marilah sama-sama kita mengamalkan doa ini. Mudah-mudahan ALLAH Ta'ala memelihara diri kita. Sesungguhnya tiada daya dan upaya diri ini kita hamba-Nya yang hina dan lemah melainkan hanya dengan pertolongan ALLAH Ta'ala. Wallahua'lam bissawab.

Laa haula wala quwwata illa billah.
Astaghfirullah al adzim.

2009-10-26T12:21:00.013+08:00

I know I can be stronger than this. I never said I was perfect but if anyone think they're way better than anyone else and never ever sinned, I think they're just kidding themselves. Have these people ever sat down and ponder about what they say about others? That what they say might be untrue? I can never stop one from speaking their mind but what I can do is to turn away & dismissing their say. I forgive cos that is what God would do in times like this.

So save all the comments to one's self. For maybe, you might need it more than I do.

Ya Allah, ampunkan lah segala dosa aku. Mungkin hamba ini tak sempurna mana tapi aku tahu Engkau maha pengasih, lagi maha penyayang. Jika ini adalah sesuatu yang harus aku harungi Ya Allah, aku berterima kasih dan berserah kepadaMu. Kerana segala pujian hanya untukMu Ya Allah..

Thank you to all my friends. I know I can always turn to you. (:

Words are only words. Yours against mine. That can't bring me down.

And with that, I'll take time reflect. No more drama. No more. This is just getting way too ridiculous for my humble life. Goodness, these people have no life spamming others!

Before anyone starts to speak again, so please reflect on yourself. Are you even worthy to say what you want to say?

Well just have this in mind, fitnah itu suatu dosa yang besar.

2009-10-26T08:56:00.012+08:00

Omg. Here we go again.

Please stop all this bullshit. Once again, I have said. I don't know you. Why are you so bent on ruining people's life? If you really hate me, say it to me, face to face. Why must you keep spamming my page, from one location to another?

What I or any of my friends have done, is not up to you to judge. Itu antara aku/mereka dan Allah. I'm not going to say I'm pious or anything but my parents taught me well enough not to ridicule others in public. So admit it. As He has created you as you are, you're also one of God's imperfect creation just like I am or anyone else as a matter of fact. So don't go around slamming people down. You're not so right or as perfect as you like to think. Only He has the right to condone so. So if you think this is funny, it's not. To think you actually say spamming is bad. Ermm.. Ya right, that coming from you. You're actually harrasing me and my friends. So if you actually have a brain to think, start using it now.

I shall ignore you like a sore thumb sticking out. Too much has been said. The pot calling the kettle black. Errr.. Hello. I think that's you. Ya Allah. Prangai macam kurang kasih sayang. Hah. Search something in your soul. If you actually have one to start off in the first place.

Ps. Gigi aku jogang + busuk? Muka aku pecah? Rambut aku tak ikal mayang? My command of english is bad? I have a black heart? Aku tidak akan menafikan diri aku ini tidak sesempurna mana. Aku hanya hamba Allah dan suatu hari nanti, aku akan kembali kepadaNya seadanya.. So forgive me dear God for if I have sinned in one way or another. With that, I rest my case.

2009-10-24T10:48:00.010+08:00

Keeping my silence doesn't mean I'm wrong in any sense.
Cos I know time will tell and that's when you know that God is fair.

I don't know you at all. So why are you even talking about me?

But thanks kutuk2 aku. Dosa tu all yours. (:

2009-10-24T09:54:00.011+08:00

This is my blog.

I don't need to explain things because does it even matter in the first place? Like I have said in my sidebar, if you don't like what you see, please click on the RED "X" on the top right hand corner (unless you don't understand simple english). Even if I have 10 friends saying good things about me, I think people rather listen to ONE stupid lil lie about me.

Question is if you think you are better than me, why spam me? It goes to show you are NOT really any better. You can STILL talk & say what you want buy hey I'm not listeningggggg. (: Aku nye suke aku nak blog ape pasal THIS IS MY BLOG!

What doesn't kill me, only makes me stronger.

Ps. You know you can't always please everyone. And here, they will always be people who just can't see me being happy.

Tapi yang peliknya, you people just can't get enough of me. Love to spam my blog I see.. *_*
It seems like I matter cos you're affected by whatever I say here. If you don't like me, it's ok. I still have people who are close to my heart that are important in my life and that's all that matter. God bless.

2009-10-22T12:06:00.003+08:00

I feel like putting everything down and just walk out of here. It's getting on my nerves.

Being a senior doesn't mean you're always right. How am I suppose to respect you when you can't even say sorry for your wrong actions?

Balik-balik aku yang kene. You people are just sucking my blood dry.
I'm going sooner than you'll know it.

Goodbye.

2009-10-21T15:48:00.006+08:00

You know it's love when the tiny details about another person, the ones that seems insignificant to most people, seems incredible and magnificent to you.

"That's when I love you, I love you.. No matter what..." (:

No matter what they say, we know we're better than that. Cos life goes on and love is a never-ending journey.

2009-10-20T16:36:00.009+08:00

I wish for my dark past to be FOREVER forgotten.
I want to move on. I want to be a better person.

I can't do it alone. I need your support.

But if this bullshit keeps prolonging, heck yeahhh..
Things need some straightening out.

Aku bukan jenis orang suka balas membalas, menceritakan/mencari keburukkan seseorang itu. If I know something that not too nice about the person, it stays with me. Well till at least someone pokes me a question that needs some answers from me and I don't keep talking about it. Other than that, I'm your average girl. I may not be the most prettiest girl but like what my dear gf, Sue, said..

"Pretty is something you are born with. But beautiful, that's an equal oppotunity adjective. It's the inner; the heart that matters so much, just so you know."

Thumbs up! (: I know I lack in some department but hey, I'm only human. I err sometimes. I'm not perfect. I'm still trying to change. And if you can't accept me, then that's your loss. Who wants to have enemies anyway? That's just stupid!

What else can I say? Chin up, move on. This is me.

*curtsy & skips along*

2009-10-19T10:50:00.003+08:00

On a happy note, I super love my weekends. (:

2009-10-15T23:29:00.001+08:00

تعتقد أنك تعرف لي ولكن لديك أي فكرة.

2009-10-15T22:10:00.011+08:00

Mirror, mirror on the wall, who's the fairest of them all?

I was reading my older messages in c-box and came across e saga between "angel" and "nitemare". I mean why is this "nitemare" trying to make my life difficult. I don't know him. I haven't offended him I suppose cos I wasn't even talking about him or even know him. So why are you messing up my life? If you are really a man, please own up. Tell Aiman what you think you know about me. He knows me inside out. Maybe we can sit down and have coffee together. Can do some "catching up". We are rational people. Don't worry.. But what I don't get about you is why you're like so all out to destroy us. Even if we did each other wrong, what business is it of yours? True? *sighs*

Even if you want to side your friend, get your facts right. Yes, I did check out her blog/multiply. But what pissed me off was instead of asking me why am I there or something more along that line, was an entry dissing me off on my looks and things like that. I'm not like desperate that I can't get over her bf whom used to ask me out on dates. I know her bf's friends too. We go way back from school days too just like you and my bf, Aiman.

Well.. I shan't say much. I think they know me. Like how I really am. I believe Aiman, my friends & family knows me best. Who says I don't look forward to meeting him? Who says I don't care? You think you know but you have no idea. Again, I repeat, I'm over her bf. So what we used to date? That was so long ago. And listen up, I'm not sakit hati with her being together wit her bf again. Why should I? Even if I didn't have a bf now, I won't feel like that. So kental or whatttt?? Urrrmmm. Never mind. Why bother explaining? Actually I have nothing to explain.. Well keep saying what you want to say, I ain't listening. I don't wish you sadness or things like that but I don't wish you well either.. Cest la vie. Ciao.

P/s: This entry isn't made to be targeted at anyone else except the fella who left the comment on my c-box. Well, he has no balls I suppose. -.-

2009-10-14T16:23:00.001+08:00

Dalam kehidupan, kita harus jujur dari segi apa pun.

Kerana kalau tiada kejujuran, maka keikhlasan nya pun tiada.

2009-10-10T10:31:00.002+08:00

Terkadang aku terfikir, mungkin diri ini bukan untukmu.

Even if this was a dream, you deserve better.

I'd be happy for you. (:

2009-10-06T14:13:00.005+08:00

Some people just deserve to know the ugly truth.
although, i'm really unwilling to be the one delivering them

BECAUSE I know, it will affect relationship dynamics.
(not-to-be-confused-with -lovey/dovey relationships - read: friendship)

But, if you really want to hear it, from me - I've got nothing else to say, except the truth in whole.

I don't understand some people (they know who they are).
but then again, I think they don't understand me either. so, yeah it's a fair deal.

and lastly, don't imply your views of me, on me.

It doesn't work that way. (:

2009-10-02T15:54:00.004+08:00

"Relationships are like chocolate chip cookies. In order for them to be successful, you need the correct ingredients. One wrong measurement or missed ingredient, and the cookie is not as good. Even if you have made some mistakes in the recipe, however, you still have a chocolate chip cookie, just not a very good one. So, like building relationships, making yummy cookies requires that you pay attention to the rules and give them enough of your time and effort."

I think there are a few love lessons we can learn from:

Relationships don't just happen overnight; they take time.
Relationships aren't easy; but instead, they're actually hard work.
Relationships have rules; and breaking these rules can sometimes hurt a relationship.
Relationships are comprised of specific components that make them successful.

So, the question is: what are relationships like to you?

2009-09-18T15:24:00.003+08:00

Walaupun kau bersamanya

Kau tetap aku yang punya
Biarku telan pahitnya
Agar kau bahagia

Siang dan malam aku menanti
Walau diri ku tak dipeduli
Sayang kau tak menyedari

Cinta mu ada disini..

2009-09-18T10:07:00.001+08:00

Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul.

2009-09-17T10:44:00.010+08:00

You don't know what you do

Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak
It's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that's true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited

This is true..

Every single time I hear this song, I'm reminded of some who's close to me.
It's nearly 2 years now that you're no longer here.

I miss that smile, that laughter, that happy-go-lucky attitude.
Even when you're not feeling well, you still manage to smile and make others smile wit you.

(OMG. I think I'm gonna cry now..)

Allah lebih menyayanginya.
Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat kepada Roh-nya.

In loving memory of Muhammad Amirrudin Bin Sabri.
01.10.1986 -01.11.2007

I miss you dear friend. I really do. :(

2009-09-15T16:51:00.002+08:00

“Maybe we have to break everything to make something better out of ourselves.”

2009-09-14T16:35:00.001+08:00

"Love is a sad thing in a complicated world. Not all who are meant to be,
find each other. And some who do, are too afraid to follow their Heart.
Love can be the most beautiful, as well as the cruelest, of all fates known to man."

II

2009-09-14T09:46:00.005+08:00

Happy 2nd anniversary to us.

May Allah bless us both and this relationship that we built together. I know it's been a rollercoaster ride but hey, who ever said it was easy?

Just like the good ol' times

2009-09-12T11:16:00.005+08:00

Suke aku dapat jumpa kalian semua! (:

THANKS boys & girls for the lovely evening. (:

More of such gatherings to come. Cheers!~

2009-09-11T17:00:00.008+08:00

O Allah..

Please have Mercy on me.

Please forgive me for the sins I committed in the past and those I will commit in the future.

O'Allah, have Mercy on all the Muslims, and guide them.

Guide me and guide my parents, my siblings, my cousins, my aunts and uncles, my nephews and nieces and so forth.

O Allah, I ask You to strengthen my iman and those around me.

I ask You to soften my heart and to soften the hearts of the Believers.

O Allah, forgive me for my shortcomings, for only You are Perfect.

O Allah, Please Forgive me if I ever got too wrapped in a matter that I didn't have the time to utter Your Name.

O Allah, Please Forgive me for all the salat I missed because of ignorance or laziness.

Please Forgive me for all the fasts I didn't make up, thinking it was "alright, since I fasted most of the days anyway."

O Allah, Please forgive me for the quarter I never dropped into the metal cup for the homeless man begging on the street.

O Allah, Please spark the love of Islam in my heart and in the hearts of every single Muslim until it gets implanted in their children and their children's children and so on.

O Allah, I ask that You help me for I am weak and will only grow stronger by Your Strength,

so Allah Please Strengthen me to fight Syaitan and his whispers.

And if I ever fell into his trap and followed my desire, then sincerely forgive me, for that displays not only my weakness, but Your Greatness as well.

O Allah, Please lighten the punishment in the grave for those before us and those after us.

Please Allah, lighten the punishment and please shed light into every Muslim's grave.

O Allah, if I ever was too afraid to stand up for Your Deen because of what others would think, then Forgive me, for I was a fool for doing so.

O Allah, Please Protect me and each Muslimat, and Protect especially the orphans and the widows.

O Allah, Please Strengthen the faith of the destitute Muslims around the world, so they have hope to live.

O Allah,if I ever forgot to do doa for even one suffering Muslim, then Forgive me for then it is as if I haven't done doa for the entire ummah.

O Allah, Please Forgive me for all the foul words I spoke either out of ignorance or because I was trying to be "cool".

O Allah,please forgive me if I never stopped to think about You, due to "other important things."

O Allah, Please Forgive me for not having enough time or creating time for reading the Qur'an.

O Allah, Please be the Light of my eyes, ears and heart.

Please be the Light on the sides of me and the Light behind me and the light in front of me.

Ameen....

Just me and my babes. (:

2009-09-11T13:22:00.021+08:00

I had a meet up session wit my babes yesterday after months of not seeing each other. Zaleha makin cun & Nurul da nak tunang! Aku bile lagi (for both). Lol! It's ok.

So I made reservations for 3 at Ramen Ten Harbourfront at 6.30pm. But knowing them, they came about 20mins later! Boleh gitu kasi aku tunggu sorang2. Kesian tau. =P Upon reaching, we made our orders cos it was nearing breaking-fast and we didn't want to wait so long for the food to arrive. Thank God makanan pun sampai before azan berkumandang di radio. Bagus. I suke skali! Haha. I had my crayfish dry ramen, Siti had black pepper beef ramen & Nurul had some cheesy chicken katsuke or smtg like a cutlet meal complete with miso soup, rice & fries. All were yummy especially mine! ((:

After the scrumptous meal, we headed outside Vivo. Had a hearty talk about what we did/went through in the past, during our SGH stint together. Kinda bittersweet memories but we had fun! Siti later on wanted to have some dessert so we went upstairs to Pacific Coffee Co. The Cheesecake Brownies was the bomb! So sinfully good la! (: We must go there again right girls! Duduk kat kerusi buai2, reminising our past. Hahahah! Feeling lak!

Ini akan terjadi bila "da lama tak berjumpa rindu rasa hati".. Lol! Banyak sangat to catch up within the short meet up. As norm, we laughed like there were 10 of us. (aku rase org leh pekak dengar kiter ketawa! Kwang3! ~)

I had an awesome time with you girls. Jalan Raya this year is a must tau! Die die must visit each others' place. Then you all can melalak at my home!! FOC babe!

Hearts you girls. (:

2009-09-09T16:07:00.001+08:00

“Apabila kita kejar dunia, dunia akan lari;
tetapi apabila kita kejar akhirat, dunia akan mengejar kita”

Of pippppzzaaas & accessories! ~

2009-09-08T09:59:00.010+08:00

Last Thursday, I met up the Siglap girls (more like ladies now) after years of not seeing each other! We decided on breaking fast @Marina Square's Pizza Hut. Obviously since Yanti and myself, work in town, we were the first to arrive there. (I told Yanti to meet me @Somerset Mrt. So we could go together!)

Upon reaching, (thank God there were seats available cos PH suddenly has the policy of not having reservations) we talked about what has happened over the few years that we haven't heard from each other. Macam2 story hangat! Hahahah! Mar, Sofie and Shaf arrived an hour later (nearly 7pm but just in time to break-fast). Ape lagi. Cepat2 order PIZZA. (semua tak reti makan PINEAPPLE cos they scared that it might kill the baby. LOL! Ok just kidding..)

We had pizzas (due to overwhelming reponse from Miss Shaf. Hehe!) and drumlets. Enough to suffice our hunger cos we were already full cos we laughed at all the stupid things we did back then in secondary school. Kental ke pe!! ~

After the meal, we walked around finding for the perfect accesories for the upcoming Lebaran! Punyalah semangat kengkawan ku. Try punya try at last, I didn't buy anything! Hahahaah! Aku rase e shopkeeper naik bosan cos we took pics in the shop. *grins*

Anyways, I'll let the picture do the talking. I had fun girls! Thanks for your presence. More of such outings ok dearest gfs. ((:

Shaf & Sofie on the decision making! Serious nampak!

Dianti looking very demure. (:

Drumlets are a must!

Yummy! Food in my tummy!

Burpss. Excuse me!

Thanks Shaf for the keychain! I like! (: ~

Cleaner paling terhandal di Singapura! LOL!

The mandatory toilet shot. you can't live/leave without it. Hahaha!

Browse, browsing, browsed.. Berambus! Heheheh!

Goodbye gfs! Till next time, (maybe Raya + Mar's bbyboy pops ok!)

MUCH LOVE! ~ (:

2009-09-08T09:13:00.002+08:00

" Setinggi mana kasih sayangku, Allah lebih berhak menyayangimu,
Damai la engkau disana di bawah rahmat
dan kasih sayang-Nya,
Sesungguhnya aku akan menyusulmu di kemudian hari...
Al-Fatihah buat semua muslimin dan muslimat yang telah pergi"

2009-09-07T10:49:00.003+08:00

Shoes / Checked
Bag / Checked
Clothes for Raya / Checked
Hair / Checked

Wonder what else should I do other than these trivial things? *grins*

Ok rumah tongkang pecah. Kuih belum buat. Grrrrr! ~

Mampos aku!

2009-09-04T15:29:00.002+08:00

Mendak ke pe???!!!! @________@

Bile nak pukul 5.30pm? I wanna go home! :(

I NEED sleep!

2009-09-03T11:46:00.002+08:00

Set me free why don't you, babe

Get out my life why don't you, baby

Coz you don't really love me, no no no

You just keep me hanging on...

r.ejec.ti.on.s

2009-09-03T09:43:00.011+08:00

I think I truly understand how it feels to be rejected. In some sense I think I was hoping that somehow the feelings were mutual/reciprocated. So obviously it really NOT. Ouh well. Life goes on as per normal. But at that very moment, I just felt a lil small and low.

(Then again) In life, as you pursue your dreams, there will always be those who will tell you that you just aren't good enough. (Truth is, that's sucks. Irregardless in what language it is said.) The road to the attainment of our goals is rarely rejection-free. Yet, when doors are slammed in our faces, many of us conclude we must be on the wrong track. It is amazing how willing we are to abandon our heartfelt dreams because someone else doesn't believe in us (or doesn't feel the same way about us).

You can't live life being afraid. You have to do things, even if they frighten you. It's like parachute jumping - you feel great anxiety and don't really know where you are going to land. Did you make a fool of yourself, or will everything turn out okay? Let's hope it's more of the latter than the former.

Whichever way you slice it, rejection stings, but it doesn't have to hurt. And if we learn from it, it can be a good thing. Being rejected triggers hurt and anger, fear, doubts and thoughts of revenge. Eventually you come to deal with the rejection one way or another. And it's how you deal with it that counts.

Don't accept someone else's word on your life. I believe it was Martin Luther King, Jr. who said:

It is difficult to get an A if you are afraid of getting an F.

2009-09-03T09:39:00.002+08:00

I think I just woke up from a bad dream.

Wished I never been there in the first place. Now I don't know what is it that .... wants.

2009-09-02T14:42:00.003+08:00

And I miss you ♥.

Once a upon a Tyme(s)

2009-09-02T11:24:00.008+08:00

Ini satu crita tentang 6 rakan. Mereka semua bekerjasama di sebuah kedai terletak di Bazaar Ramadhan Geylang Serai. Nama kedai itu Tymes Creation.

Mari kita jenguk apa yang telah terjadi pada hari Sabtu lepas. (:

(Idea/jalan crita ini (somehow) dihasilkan oleh Sulinah. Hehehe!)

Hanya di Tymes Creation! Sokong la!

Mawar yang kembang di dalam pasu sungguh menarik hati!

Sibuk nak buat sales report. Sambil2 tu dengar la lagu! Nostalgia lagi. Saya suke! ((:

Mempromosikan Tymes kehalayak ramai!!

Yang satu nak jadi penari, yang lagi satu gumbiraaaa sekali selepas dapat lelapkan mata penatnya & biasalah, DIVA tu boss Tymes la kan. Hehehe!

Sempat bermesra bersama Ribena! Bagus untuk kesihatan anda! Vitamin C!!

Makcik beli la. Murah murah aje. Buat cantik rumah tahun ni buat raya! Terima kasih la banyak! Yahoo. Ade sales!! =P

Abg2 (carpet) sedang menanti Bos tutup kedai, lepak jap la ape lagi. Curik tulang ye! =P

Tymes Creation! Hip hip hooray!! (: Semoga sukses selalu!

2009-09-02T09:47:00.003+08:00

I'm damn sleepy sia!! I slept at 2+ in the morning! Layankan *....*

Tsk tsk. I know I shouldn't but.. *_*

2009-09-01T16:34:00.002+08:00

The way you walk

The rhythm when you're dancing

Every inch of you spells out desire

You're such a rush

The rush is never ending

Now, you got it..

You're wow, wow, wow, wow!

2009-09-01T13:03:00.006+08:00

Butterflies in the stomach, sweaty palms, heart racing at the speed of light and all those fireworks.

"Action speaks louder than words and I'm a man of great experience.. I know you've got another man but I can love you better than him.." ^_^

It's been some time now. (:

2009-08-31T17:00:00.002+08:00

OMG!! Should I even feel this way?! @_@

2009-08-31T13:10:00.003+08:00

So how do you miss something/someone that was NEVER there?

2009-08-31T12:10:00.002+08:00

I think I miss you, somehow. *sighs*

2009-08-31T09:47:00.005+08:00

Can I don't have to work anymore? I'm just feeling LAZY ( and sleepy waking up in the mornings these days!). That's all. =P

P/s: The MONDAY BLUES are back as always. Another 4 days to the weekends. *boooo!*

2009-08-28T17:16:00.003+08:00

Momma said don't play wit fire..

cos you'll never know when you'll get burned. -.-

2009-08-28T16:58:00.005+08:00

“Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you, because you think that your feelings were wrong, and it makes you feel so small because it's so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn't come back. You're left so alone that you can't explain.”

It's like you can see but you can't touch. So near yet so far. Like Eve admiring the apple but can't taste it since it's forbidden.

Do you understand?

2009-08-28T11:24:00.003+08:00

Come support us! (:

Love,

Tymes Creation

(bukan Tymes Collection eh!!) Last warning ok! LOL!

Newspapers in The News(papers)

2009-08-28T09:02:00.007+08:00

GUESS WHATTT??!!

Tymes Creation
is on page 8 of Berita Harian! Belilah senaskah hari ini ye! Woohooo! ((:

Congrats fellow Tymes mates!

http://cyberita.asia1.com.sg/msingapura/story/0,6879,148078,00.html?

28 Ogos 2009

SINGAPURA

TREND DI BAZAR HARI RAYA

Surat khabar lama datangkan hasil memuaskan

Dikitar semula secara kreatif jadi perhiasan unik sempena Lebaran

The (recycled) newspapers of Tymes Creation is in the news(papers).

How cool can that ever get??

2009-08-27T16:46:00.005+08:00

I've been alone when I'm surrounded by friends
How could the silence be so loud?
But I still go home knowing that I've got you
There's only us when the lights go down

You are my heaven on earth
You are my last, my first

And then I hear this voice inside
Ave Maria, Ave Maria, Ave Maria

I love you.

Tyme(s) is running out!

2009-08-27T13:33:00.019+08:00

I been MIA yet again. If 2 days of MC the week before wasn't enough, I had another 4 days last weekend. =P Actually I thought it's the norm cough, sore throat, warm body type of thing I always experience. But after learning that one of my close friends (that I and a few of my friends met up with just recently) had H1N1, we quickly proceeded to go to the nearest doctor and take responsiblity through our actioms. Ceybah. Bagus la tu!! LOL!

Thank God I'm safe from that. I had slight fever thou but syukur alhamdullilah nothing bad. (: I took the opportunity to give myself a break from work and just relax. I love lazing around at home!! (Just like Sulinah -Re: from one of her blog stories) If I were a cat, I'd be the lazy fat house cat. Adorable and heavy! Hahahah!

Anyways, Tymes Creation has been successfully set up on 20th August @Geylang Bazaar - Stall No. 238. Do come down and support us by buying products made from recycled newspapers!! (: Do your part in saving Gaia! See pictures below @ the stall (+ some of us wandering around Geylang Serai!). Enjoy the photos and hey, it's Friday tomorrow! A day to weekends! Yahoo! ((: Peace out.

2009-08-27T12:57:00.004+08:00

Taken @Labrador Park Jetty. Stargazing wit Aiman. Now spot the moon. (:

Where there is love, there is God also.

~ Leo Tolstoy ~

2009-08-18T13:57:00.004+08:00

I have a sore throat, kinda having the cough right now and my body feels weak and a lil feverish. I don't wanna be sick again.

Most importantly, i don't wanna have contacted the dreaded H-One-N-One. :((

Dear God, please be good to me. -.-

2009-08-18T10:35:00.004+08:00

Yesterday on my home, I didn't realise I had missed my stop till I sat down. I was thinking what is wrong with me! :(

I now feel like anger makes you stagnant, withholding all that in you. Makes you think slower and react aggressively to others' words and actions. I was already pissed off with one of the clinic staff (that the lab I work with liase). Now that I was trying to get it off my chest to dear boyf., he made me pissed again. Due to the fact that he was not having empathy for me and saying I just have to get over it. I was tired, feeling down about myself + the fact that I had missed my stop was getting on my nerves. That was it. Like wanna give up. *sighs*

Can I just get a rational answer to why MONDAY(s) always have to be blue??

2009-08-17T16:56:00.003+08:00

"Before you can grow up, you must fall in love 3 times.

Once you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever. This will teach you who your true friends are, and the fine line between friendship and more.

Once you must fall in love with someone you believe to be perfect. You will learn that no one is perfect, and that you should never be treated as any less than you deserve.

And once you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you. This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be.

And when you’re through with all that, you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt, and the ones that hurt you are the ones that you needed the most.

But most of all, you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined, it is different to each person that experiences it. And you will learn to respect each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone only wants to be loved."

Pissy Missy

2009-08-17T14:33:00.005+08:00

Aku sungguh bingit dengan satu clinic staff. Perempuan tua yang tak sadar diri da tua tu memang melampau tau. Because of 1 blardy wrong fax sent to her clinic (ok, not exactly HER clinic but her doctor's clinic. She's a nurse there but she blardy well struts as if that place belongs to her.) Tak ingat dunia.

Never mind. Hari ini hari engkau. Aku simpan je dalam hati aku. Da berapa banyak kali kau main ni game kat colleagues aku sampai yang ada tu kene warning letters and such nonsense just because she blardy thinks she can do whatever she likes. Guess what? Kalau kau buat salah (in which aku optimistic that you will do mistakes), aku make sure aku kene kan kau balik and complain. Biar ape nak jadi. Aku tak puas hati. Nama aku kau busuk kan & kau seumpama hendak pecah rice bowl aku. It's ok. Karma's a biatch. it will bite you back in your busuk tak cebuk fugly old ass. *spits*

Aku tak nak cakap pasal dia. Buang masa buang energy. Kalau tak tau dia in person lagi bagus pasal SHE DOESN'T MEAN ANYTHING IN MY GOOD LIFE. She will reap what she sow. Kau busuk dengan aku tak mengapa. Hanya Allah sahaja yang akan balas apa kau telah buat. Aku hanya akan melihat.

Ossom (last) Monday.

2009-08-17T09:20:00.006+08:00

I know I've been MIA for like over a week. Hadn't had the time to really update. I was on MC for two days after the National Day long weekend holiday. Gastric + migraine isn't good at all! :(

On a lighter note, I had a splendid time just hanging with friends and my love. ((: I spent my National Day @Aiman's place, watching the NDP. So lepak. Had no idea where to go cos we knew it's going to be crowded in the Marina area with everyone wanting to catch a glimpse of the fireworks display. Very kecoh. Confirm chop gurantee plus stapler I tell you. Haha! =P

I was hoping boyf. would want to drive me to One Fullerton so I can capture some fireworks moments but heck no. I was getting sleepy too, just lazing on the couch the whole day. Plus I was having a throbbing headache that didn't seem to go away. Had to practically beg Aiman for panadols. Popped two and I felt slightly better. Guess my baby didn't want me to depend on pills too much. (: Thanks.

And on Monday, I had an impromtu date with boyf. To where? To the Botanical Gardens. Awww. How romantic. Haha! I think it's my 2nd time there. Pathetic lor. Haha. He said it's his childhood playground. How cute! I can imagine him climbing the tree branches (which is so long and big by the way!) and running around (with pampers on! LOL!) in the vast space available there!! (: Those were the carefree days, I suppose.

And I saw a really FAT (and fierce, as per Sulinah) cat, walking with its owner and a leash on. Adorable. Mesti prangai macam Garfield tau! I like, I like!~ =P

Well enjoy the pictures, thou they are way overdued! Cheers.

Err.

2009-08-07T17:18:00.002+08:00

To err is human.

2009-08-05T14:40:00.009+08:00

Yesterday, I had fun going out wit Sue & Hafiz + Alfiah & Is and of course, how can i leave out my dear Soebqi Aiman! (:

We met up at Taka since the ladies all work in the area. (Hehe.) While waiting for Aiman to arrive (which by the way, took ages lor!), we cam-whored again and again and again! Hobby katakan. (:

The guys sampai naik bosan aku rasa tengok kita 3 ekor petik gambar! ~

*Aku da macam ad jual buah asam asin!*

*Dari kiri ke kanan: Fie tangan bas, Sue cute sangat (self-proclaimed sia!) & Nurul lap slips*
Slaps forehead.
LOL.

Soon after we had enough (or what's not) of taking pictures, we proceeded to make a move to Marina since Aiman have already arrived in town. Kesian abang Aiman lapar & letih daripada camp meeting. Sibuk jerr la meeting ni semua!

Initial plan was to go SAFRA Yishun to have dinner @Eatzi but since we all tired, we ended up wit Marina Food Loft. I shared a plate of Seafood Hor Fun with love. He's apparently keeping in shape. Requested to have Apple & Celery juice when I asked what drink he wanted. Haha! Ok la. Keep up the good work. Jiayo!!

We hanged around for a while more then out of nowhere, the idea to bowl came about. The rest is history as they say. As per norm, I, Nurulhuda Yousop, suck at bowling. Please jangan ajak aku bowl. For fun or not, buang duit je bowl masuk longkang! Hahaha! Posing je macam pro. Tapi sebenarnya, aku pro-sak kan game tu lagi ada! *GRINS cheekily*

*Terperanjat nampak. Alamak. Nurul buat malu co. la bowl ni macam!!*

*Bile nak game ni macam??!*

*Ni kasut ke ape??! Tolong jelaskan kerana bau dia menusuk dikalbu. Boleh jadi biru tau geng! Lempar kat anjing leh pengshannnn ah!! Superbowl Marina, I kasi you all last warning eh!!*

*Ni gambar aku bowl macam paham! YAY! Saya suka skali kerana nampaknya seperti saya pandail bowl. Padahal.. TAK!*

Anyways, my tuesday was fun filled with laughter. Now when I balik, I nak ngorok puas hati I!! Roughly about 1 & half hours to go.

*chants - Tidur, tidur, tidur!*

Just me and my boo

2009-08-03T15:55:00.006+08:00

Yesterday, we chilled out at Pasir Ris Beach. No pictures here cos I didn't bring my cammy along and iPhone was at home syncing itself. LOL.

Love was kind enough to give a (5 minutes) back massage cos I was aching all over la. OMG! I feel so old already. :( We just laid back and relax for the evening. Afterwhich we both got hungry and proceeded to Simpang, yet again. And that's it for Sunday. I hope you guys had a wonderful weekend with your loved ones.

Cheers!

Gambar ini buat hiasan sahaja. (:

2009-07-31T10:33:00.014+08:00

I find this snippet rather true.

"Kalau seseorang lelaki itu yang awak sayang tipu atau bohong awak.. apa awak rasa?"

"Jika seseorang itu pernah hadir dalam hidup saya dan menjadi sebahagian dari hidup saya.. tapi atas sebab-sebab tertentu, dia terpaksa pergi..

Jangan terlalu sedih. Terimalah kenyataan itu sekurang-kurang nya.. dia pernah membahagiakan saya. Saya redha. "

The art of forgiveness. (:

Forgiveness is not an easy thing for a lot of us. I believe this is because we associate forgiveness with allowing another to “get away with” whatever it is that he or she has done. If someone has done you harm, they will be accountable for their actions with or without your anguish. However seen in a new light, forgiveness can be a way of setting yourself free. Move on and remove the "hook" that keeps you tangled in the past.

2009-07-29T16:53:00.010+08:00

Sometimes you feel like you can only dream of being with that someone. Well let's put this way.

What if the person you like was like so awesome to be put in words? Maybe he's really well-educated, cute, tall and not so dark plus he has the body (LOL) and comes from a well-off family that's close-knit. And you.. You're an average joe. You're not stupid but prolly could have done better. Your family isn't rich but will make do.

So one day, you thought what you envisioned all this while came true. So the "perfect" person you've longed for is right in front of you. What do you do?

If that was me, I'll prolly just keep the longing to myself. I'm afraid of rejection from him or his family. Maybe more of the family (in this sense). Yes, stupid I can be to watch the person you "love" walk away slowly from you. I don't condemn myself yet I don't highly regard myself as being "the woman" man want. -.-

I'm just average. The girl-next-door. I'm not some princess and I know where I stand. But that doesn't make me weak. (:

I don't know what's the moral of this post but I just felt like posting this anyway.

Goodbye world. See you tomorrow! Cheerios. (:

P/s: I love you. (:

2009-07-29T10:14:00.006+08:00

Have you ever felt like you don't really belong somewhere?

Cos I feel like a sore thumb, sticking out. I don't belong here. *sighs*

2009-07-28T13:27:00.005+08:00

I don't like it when someone shouts or higher his voice on me.

Irregardless of the mistakes or carelessness I've made, I don't think it's ever right to do that to someone. I'm not your slave or some animal you can scream, rant onto. It's unfair. I know your my senior or whatever shit it is, I don't like your attitude. if you have some problems that prolly been triggered just by a lil carelessness I've made, then screw you. Because I might just walk out here. I don't need this if you try to make my life a living hell here.

With that, it's LUNCHTIME and I wanna cekik already. I don't wanna lose my appetite because of you. I mean who are you anyways..? ((:

(The Twins) Birthday, babes & hunks.

2009-07-25T09:49:00.033+08:00

So after so long, my Multiply decided to cooperate with me. It has now uploaded all my 700pics from last Friday & Saturdays madness.

It started with us, mainly Wani, Sulinah, Ihsan & gf, Nurul Nabilah and moi decorating the table at Changi Beach with balloons & the "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" cut-out! We were so running behind schedule!! Cos we had to check in the hotel as well and hide the presents! We were supposed to have been ready like ages ago la. Prolly by 7.15pm latest! But guess what! 8pm and we were still panicky over things!! My gosh! Thank God Ihsan & Nurul Nabilah were there to help out! If not, I think the boys would be freaked out by our state of mess. (K macam paham! Dorang padahal excited nak mampos!) Anyways, let the picture do the talking! (Some from Su's cammy!)

After posing with the clean & comfy hotel room, we met Ihsan & Nabilah the highly secluded area of Changi Village. It's located to the left most area from the bridge. Well if you know what I mean. So Wani called Arshad or was it Aiman, to get their butt moving to the secret place. Of course, the twins would get a lil suspicious cos who would wanna treat makan at the beach. 4 guys??! Errrmm. Too gay for that! Haha! But they followed suit! (Makan free katakan! Bedal je la!)

Ok I prolly heard them from afar. "Eh Din, tu macam Nurul!! So they call each other Din. The Dins! Funny but true because it's Nazaruddin & Amzaruddin! LOL! (: And Sulinah, gave "SOS" to the guys by playing with the sparklers! So obvious but we were too excited, we couldn't care much more!~

After their muke terperanjat looks, they bedal the food la! Then they looked at Aiman and said, "Ahhh, banyak la kaunye nak blanje makan!" Aiman replied, "Eh betul pe! Makan free!" LOL! Pandailah sayang!

We decided to make a move to the hotel around 10.30pm. The reason for us to go first. Wani wants to pee in a nice toilet. Hahaha! Ok corked up reson but the guys, they know us too well already! We need clean toilets! ((: So while waiting, camwhored somemore till we saw the cute lil orange car driven by none other, my boyf. Amzar & Nazar were shocked to see us happily sitting in Changi Village Hotel lobby! They must be confused to why we were there still. Kata gi toilet je mah!

And there you have it the muke terperanjat (when we girls kid around saying there were some stripper show in store for them boys) mintak kene sepak (cos they actually thought there were strippers! Pantat betul!). Nazar had to do some quiz before he could actually get his hands on his presents courtesy of dear Miss Shazwani! (: Kinda cute. Aiman sibuk2 wanted to help but decided to lepak on the bed after a while. Penat la baby. Kesian dia! I had a round or two of "Jenga, jenga" with Amz & Su. After Amz lost for like the 2nd time, he gave up and had his "Last Supper" of the day. Kecoh ah ni budak! Tak naik badan lak tu!

The morning after we headed off to Changi Village (after washing up and posing at the hotel's lift lobby) for a hearty breakfast/lunch! Si Amz makan Nasi Lemak, Aiman and myself had Ayam Penyet and Sulinah had Nasi Goreng Kampong. We went back to the hotel and rested for a while before proceeding to swim!! We actually had so much fun. We lost track of time!! And I can actually SWIM now. Ok la not so pro but can make it! Thanks Aiman for teaching me the basics. I love you baby! Muacksss! And as if ground level swimming pool wasn't enough, we went up to upmost floor to have a dip too! The view is so beautiful! With the blue skies and planes flying by. How wonderful life can be when you just relax and watch the world pass by. ((: Fantastic!

Soon it was dinner. So headed down to Changi Village to takeaway some makan and have it in the comfort of the hotel room (plus we wanted to watch APM)! We had roti john, nasi & noodles! Passed around so everyone could have a taste! And the otah-otah was awesome!

Anw APM was a waste of time. We dozed off in the middle of the (ouh-s0-slow) show! And blogger decides to be an ass when I can't upload the rest of the pictures. Thankssss la kan! :(

Hope you guys enjoyed yourselves! did! To many more happy moments in the future with you guys! Cheers!

-

2009-07-22T14:51:00.007+08:00

Susu, Nunu, Wawa

Changi Beach & Changi Village Hotel - Room seven6eight surprise!

Will update more later!! My multiply: BALLS TO YOU! You can blardy heck kiss my a**!

2009-07-17T12:41:00.002+08:00

My prayers & condolences to those affected by Ritz-Carlton and JW Marriott Jakarta bombing. :(

May GOD bless you.

Can we just ask ourselves this simple question.

WHAT DOES IT TAKES FOR THIS WORLD TO ACHIEVE PEACE?

Thank Goodnes It's Friday (already)!

2009-07-17T12:07:00.008+08:00

This was what I did while waiting for 6.30pm to come by and what Sue did, while waiting for her hubby.

Take picture tak ingat dunia depan Tangs. Classic. (:

Today I suppose there'll be more photo-taking. Cause.. Eh, I can't say it. Ade je orang yang kiter nak surprise terbaca! Darnnn. (: So just stay tuned. Have a blast of a day on this TGIF! Cheers!

P/s: Da nak dekat lunch? Sue.. Lu mau makan ape ah? Haha!

Of TGIF & Saturday Night (Fever)!

2009-07-13T11:37:00.021+08:00

Friday was ossom, spent wit my love. We met after work at Borders. He read some mags while I was touching up for the 127384095 time in the toilet. Hahaha! He was a lil whiny saying he was hungry and i suggested Burger King ('cos got coupons mahhh! Must make use!) Tengah2 makan tu, ternampak si Sue and Hafiz together with Alfiah & Edil, walking past. I was like waving to them. Boleh la pulak sume potek. Ok correction. Only Alfiah saw us and they walked towards the BK entrance. Apparently Sue had a mini gathering later on in the evening with her fellow primary schoolmates. So nice. (: But konon2 alas perut first. Hehe!

They went off first, leaving Aiman and me, alone. How romatic. (Ahhh. Yelah tu! Hahaha!) Aiman decided to satisfy his chocolate mousse craving at Sufi. It's located at Arab Street. Ok the mousse isn't too heavy so it's quite refreshing in some sense. We had some potato wedges and snapple too. Ossom!! So while talking and having fun trying to take some night shots, Amzar called and asked where we're at. Boleh kat same tempat lak tu. He should have called earlier. Maybe leh lepak a lil longer! ('Cos actually my intention that evening was to go to SAM - Sg Art Museum, if you hadn't known it yet.)

Anyways, Aiman and I left around a quarter to 10pm and proceeded to SAM. Met with Sue & hubby over there. Looked around for some bargains at the flea market. And yup! I got myself two great buys!! (: OMG! I should stop myself from shopping! Was just right on time to catch the fireworks displays! So spectacular! And all of us watched some of the performances. Quite good if I must say so myself. Left the venue around midnight and that's the end for Friday.

On Saturday (after work as well), I met up with the boys. Aku da macam jaga kambing tau tak. 4 of them!! The plan was to go Gelang Patah, JB and transport the "newspapers of tomorrow" to Sg. So ingatkan sampai itu, angkut tu vases and chalibot ah! Sekali si Nazar ajak makan tepi laut!! Wah! Shiok man! I never had that kind of experience. The ambience was so serene and peaceful. If only Sg had that kind of chill out place. I'd be there every single time I'm down or need time alone. With the wind blowing in your face and the sky's a different blue, it's amazing how nature can change your mood in an instance. Ermm. I prolly sidetracked there a little. Ok maybe alot. Haha! But really.. It's beautiful out there. You guys should go there one day! (:

We had a delicious spread of food from Cereal Prawns, Seafood Tom Yum, Sweet & Sour Seabass, Ayam Masak Merah & Kangkong Belachan. Sedap hingga menjilat jari. Hehe! (: And afterwhich, the guy camwhored a lot more than I did. (As per Sulinah, they camjerked. Male version of camwhores. Haahaha!) Soon we made our way home to Sg. But not without all the drama. Firstly, a tree fell and blocked our path out from the restaurant. They guys like real only. Like hero wanna help. Skali setakat kick the branches only. Haha! Might as well just sit in the car right?? But since they never had that kind of experience in Sg, they wanna check it out.

And when we thought that was it, it rained heavily the moment we load the vases in the car. Aiyooo. Plus we lost our way home. We prolly circled around JB like 3 hours. We were straving by the time we found Tuas checkpoint! I'm so glad to go back Sg! Banyak la dugaan! But we pulled through it all. Even after all that, it didn't dampen our spirits. (: We carried on to the night. Had some snacks along with our talk cork session at Kranji Dam. After 10 minutes or so, Amzar suggested a better place. Punggol End!! Bukan nak blang siang2. Da happy korang duduk 10 minutes kat Kranji Dam?? But pasal kawan kan, aku layankan. Nasib baik bukan aku yang drive! We ended the day (or more like the night) around 1.30am. I slept like a baby till noon and slept again at 4pm till 7pm. Wahh! So darn tired but worth it cos I love outings with friends and LOVE! My weekends was great! How about yours? (: