First and foremost, I would like to welcome my dear gf, Sue, back from her short trip! Hooray.. Syukur alhamdulillah kau selamat pergi dan selamat pulang ke Sg. Kalau tak, aku merasa hampa & kecewa. Sapppp. Takmu step emo kat sini la Nurul! Hahaha! Hope you enjoyed the short getaway with your dearest hubby! (:

Anyhoos, today isn't such a good day. I came home late last night, prolly around 12+. My dad's nagging didn't help much either to my self esteem. I mean what rubbish is this. Why does the "anak jantan" get better treatment than his two daughters? It's so effin' unfair lor! :( My bro can jolly well not come home and my dad will still praise him like crazy. I mean I don't smoke, I don't drink, I don't club. Yes. I am boring in that sense but that's because I chose to. Not because my dad says no, you can't do this or that but ya, of cos being a father, he must set a good guideline for all of us to follow. Not just me or my sister but for ALL to follow!

I just feel I'm being treated unfairly. I'm turning 24 this year and he still treat me like I'm blardy 6 year old who can't think for herself. I know the basic of what's right and what's wrong ah! It's so wrong. I mean how is it ok for your bro's gf to go out with us till 1 in the morning but it's wrong for me to do so. Isn't that what you call DOUBLE STANDARD??! So damn biased lorrr! I am irritated by the fact that my bro gets away with almost everything. Nak blajar kereta pun bapak sponsor. AKU?? HABUK PUN TAKDE AHHH! Ape punya nasib. Beli DSLR tu pun duit sendiri. Haizzzzzzzzzz. Tapi takpe. At least i know how hard it is to earn money and that all that I have bought is from my hard work. I'm proud of that. Satu hari Allah akan tunjukkan kepada bapak aku, yang agung2 kan anak lelaki nye itu, bezanya permata & kaca. I hate it when this happens but what can I do? Cest la vie! Sometimes things are out of my control and I just to redha kepadaNya. Mungkin semua ini ade hikmah. Insya'Allah! (:

On a lighter note, I'm meeting boyf. together wit Sue & hubby for dinner later. Hopefully that's something that can make my day. Mane tak?! I woke up 4 in the morning with a terrible tummyache and nothing pass outta me! Isn't that so irritating!! Urghh! And when I thought the pain has subsided, it friggin' woke me up again around 5.30am!! My goodness. I'm having terrible days like this lorr! Benci seyyy. Can you just go away, dear tummyache?! :((