As the saying goes, "In order to feel love, they must first experience loss."

True enough. I think I need to take a breather. Go further from the problem. Let me see the bigger picture. I've been stuck in a rut. I didn't realise it till yesterday. The smallest, trivial matter became a big issue to you. Sometimes I wished your reasons are valid enough to be heard. But truth is, it's not. You just say what comes to mind. Not thinking of the consequences. You're 23. Not getting any younger. I know I'm not perfect but I realise all the stupid things I've done before it's too late for anything.

Love is, to me, many splendid things done together. Being happy and having fun together. I always have you in my mind. I always want to do things with you by my side. But I guess you don't really need me anymore. You see me as a parasite, living off you. You want me out of sight and maybe out of mind. You don't see the things like you used to do with me. Life to you now, is more on enjoyment, whereas I'm ready enough to start thinking about the future. Where will life lead me to. I'm not boring. Of course, all work and no play makes Nurul a dull girl. But I don't know. You're just so different now. With your bunch of friends, making merry and just not really thinking. Ape gunanya kalau pandai macam mana pun, tetap bodoh from that aspect of life? Why waste it like that? Mesti your parents hampa if they found out you're like that. And start don't start blaming me for all the things you've done. I'm not the one. It's just you and your choices. Make better ones please.

Well take care my lover. Maybe time will tell. That's just maybe. Ultimately, I can't do the things that make this relationship work, alone. It takes two to tango. But now, it's just me in the limelight. Where are you?