Is love just a phrase or will it really stay for good? (Provided it's happy and not monotonous - meaning the sparks are still there; trying out new things together..) I'm feeling pretty down. I wish he understood how I really feel. Do you actually think i love to nag, keep talking about it? I just feel unappreciated, lost and sad. How am I suppose to react when you do those kind of things? You wanted compromise, you got it. Yes, I'm stubborn. I admit it but changing me to understand your needs to enjoy isn't going to make things better. I miss better days where you also understood me. This is a two-way thing. I can't be happy if you keep doing those things to me again & again. I need you to understand.

I can't stand it if you make promises and don't keep it. If you don't really want me to be here then I suppose I should go now. If it hurts too much to stay, why bother? I've been patient enough to all your needs and your lifestyle. You were not like this. Yes, you were playful but not to this extend. You can't keep on blaming for the stupid things you do. I didn't drove you to do those things. It's just a matter of your mindset + friends who like to enjoy. I have friends too. My friends can be good, can be bad. But I don't follow the stupid things they do. Why? Cause I'm true to myself. I know I can't make myself like those things if I hate it from the beginning. But that's just me. I walked away but I didn't leave you. I hate the way you "blackmail" me saying I didn't care, I walked away. BS! Please.. If I didn't care, I wouldn't answer your calls straightaway. But you.. You just ignored me totally. Ended up, I'm the one hurt, being blamed for your stupid cause. I hate feeling like this. I think I need a break. Let free and be happy. Just me. :(