Round and round we go; around the (not so) merry-go-round.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
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Hello people.
Today I shall say has been an o-kay day. Work is definitely a better to be at nowadays. Life unfortunately has been playing tricks on me. I'm not a perfect human being. I do wrong like any other human being, which I may or may not have realise. I know there's no point in saying all this but I just had to get it all from my chest. Life's is simple but we just can't resist the drama at times. We make it complicated than it ever should be and we have no one else to blame than ourselves. I wish there were some things that I never did, that I knew better than to do or say. Now the only thing left to do is to rectify the wrongs that has been done. Irregardless whether I can make the situation better (I mean how worse can it get from now onwards), at least I know I tried and that's the best anyone of us can do.
I'm sorry if I ever hurt anyone or was tactless of anyone's emotions/feelings in the process of learning. I know words mean nothing without actions. I appreciate truths rather than lies, for lies are just temporary. Lies make anyone look bad, even the very best amongst us fall for this trap of deceits. If I have to make a point now, I'd say any relationships built on secrets and lies is doomed for failures. Like my mother always say, "Ape-ape kiter buat dalam kehidupan yang sementara ini, walaupun sekejap, kiter harus jujur dan ikhlas. Insya'Allah semua yang Nurul buat akan sempurna. Hati selalu akan tenang. Allah tahu ape yang kiter buat. Allah melihat. Tetapi Allah juga akan memaafkan kalau umatNya jikalau kiter insaf daripada kesilapan yang lalu."
I know what my mom says is true. Life isn't always about being the best or being the richest or most popular. Life is all about sincerity and honesty in which this world is getting less of it. Life is also not always about us. If you stop for a minute and see the world around, you'd realise that you are very much fortunate living the live you have. I feel sad suddenly just typing all this. When most of us just tend to forget about others around us, you lose a part of you that's humane. Beggers live a day at a time, single parents coping with work and taking care of their childrens' needs often more than theirs. Others eat what they have while you are thinking what you prolly should have later for lunch. Now just ponder on for a second. Are you now wishing you had a better life or content and grateful you have this life of yours?
I also do not understand why are they some human beings who love to break people relationships up. They are the most pretentious people on earth. They prolly think they are better than any of us combined. I just don't get it. Why?? *sighssss* Why can't you people get guys/girls that are good and single? Not all the good ones are taken ok. That doesn't give any of us an effin' good reason to take away anybody's partner just for that stupid, moronic reason. Please take time to find and you can see that being a bitch/eff-er doesn't do you people any good. I believe what goes around, comes around. It may not be today or tomorrow or next year. But it will happen eventually and it will hit you worse when you are really in love with that special someone and he/she plays you back or says that the relationship you built is not going to work anymore.
And there are boys (I can't say men cause if they were really men, they're be more matured), who play with girls feelings like it doesn't matter. What if that girl you were toying with was your own sister? Won't that hurt you that your own blood gets played? That she gave her all yet nothing can content the boy that she loves who she thinks loves her? They don't give a shit. These boys think as if we owe them. They play with your feelings till you're high and dry and let you down as fast a bullet. You fall without any comfort. You get hurt more. You prolly think this is love. Eff love. This is not love. It never was cause if it that was love, why was he playing with your emotions? Why did he make you happy for that minute only to make you feel sad for the rest of the relationship? A real man would never hit a girl. He would never lie or run away from the facts of life. He would gladly prove that choosing him was the best thing you could have ever done in your entire life.
LOVE is just a four letter word now. If it had any meaning, it has all been said and done. What remains is a heart filled with disappointment and memories. Will it be the same? Never.. IT'S EITHER GOING TO BETTER OR WORSE. Should anyone give chances? Yes why not? But remember leaving your heart open will make it vulnerable/exposed/open/unguarded for attacks. Life's like this. It's make or break time.
MAKE PEACE, NOT WAR. (:
Love,
Nurul
Today I shall say has been an o-kay day. Work is definitely a better to be at nowadays. Life unfortunately has been playing tricks on me. I'm not a perfect human being. I do wrong like any other human being, which I may or may not have realise. I know there's no point in saying all this but I just had to get it all from my chest. Life's is simple but we just can't resist the drama at times. We make it complicated than it ever should be and we have no one else to blame than ourselves. I wish there were some things that I never did, that I knew better than to do or say. Now the only thing left to do is to rectify the wrongs that has been done. Irregardless whether I can make the situation better (I mean how worse can it get from now onwards), at least I know I tried and that's the best anyone of us can do.
I'm sorry if I ever hurt anyone or was tactless of anyone's emotions/feelings in the process of learning. I know words mean nothing without actions. I appreciate truths rather than lies, for lies are just temporary. Lies make anyone look bad, even the very best amongst us fall for this trap of deceits. If I have to make a point now, I'd say any relationships built on secrets and lies is doomed for failures. Like my mother always say, "Ape-ape kiter buat dalam kehidupan yang sementara ini, walaupun sekejap, kiter harus jujur dan ikhlas. Insya'Allah semua yang Nurul buat akan sempurna. Hati selalu akan tenang. Allah tahu ape yang kiter buat. Allah melihat. Tetapi Allah juga akan memaafkan kalau umatNya jikalau kiter insaf daripada kesilapan yang lalu."
I know what my mom says is true. Life isn't always about being the best or being the richest or most popular. Life is all about sincerity and honesty in which this world is getting less of it. Life is also not always about us. If you stop for a minute and see the world around, you'd realise that you are very much fortunate living the live you have. I feel sad suddenly just typing all this. When most of us just tend to forget about others around us, you lose a part of you that's humane. Beggers live a day at a time, single parents coping with work and taking care of their childrens' needs often more than theirs. Others eat what they have while you are thinking what you prolly should have later for lunch. Now just ponder on for a second. Are you now wishing you had a better life or content and grateful you have this life of yours?
I also do not understand why are they some human beings who love to break people relationships up. They are the most pretentious people on earth. They prolly think they are better than any of us combined. I just don't get it. Why?? *sighssss* Why can't you people get guys/girls that are good and single? Not all the good ones are taken ok. That doesn't give any of us an effin' good reason to take away anybody's partner just for that stupid, moronic reason. Please take time to find and you can see that being a bitch/eff-er doesn't do you people any good. I believe what goes around, comes around. It may not be today or tomorrow or next year. But it will happen eventually and it will hit you worse when you are really in love with that special someone and he/she plays you back or says that the relationship you built is not going to work anymore.
And there are boys (I can't say men cause if they were really men, they're be more matured), who play with girls feelings like it doesn't matter. What if that girl you were toying with was your own sister? Won't that hurt you that your own blood gets played? That she gave her all yet nothing can content the boy that she loves who she thinks loves her? They don't give a shit. These boys think as if we owe them. They play with your feelings till you're high and dry and let you down as fast a bullet. You fall without any comfort. You get hurt more. You prolly think this is love. Eff love. This is not love. It never was cause if it that was love, why was he playing with your emotions? Why did he make you happy for that minute only to make you feel sad for the rest of the relationship? A real man would never hit a girl. He would never lie or run away from the facts of life. He would gladly prove that choosing him was the best thing you could have ever done in your entire life.
LOVE is just a four letter word now. If it had any meaning, it has all been said and done. What remains is a heart filled with disappointment and memories. Will it be the same? Never.. IT'S EITHER GOING TO BETTER OR WORSE. Should anyone give chances? Yes why not? But remember leaving your heart open will make it vulnerable/exposed/open/unguarded for attacks. Life's like this. It's make or break time.
MAKE PEACE, NOT WAR. (:
Love,
Nurul
